Take 2

I made it to work this morning. Another day I am so glad I have the 1st floor of the office to myself. Only downfall is I am thirsty and need to go upstairs for water. :( Really avoiding going up there. Only a select few know about what I've gone through but I am still dreading it. I have such a hard time with sympathetic looks...I know people mean well, but it hurts to see the pain in their eyes when they look at me. It happened on Monday at the doctor's office when the tech showed me to the room for the scan. J reminded me this morning it's because people care not because they are pitying me.

I am really glad I stayed home yesterday. Spent part of the day as a couch potato and the other part being semi-productive. We did little things around the house. I also made carrot cake cupcakes from scratch - they turned out really yummy! My guilty pleasure tv show has been Bunheads...it's part Gilmore Girls and part Facts of Life. It's really helped take my mind off of things for short periods of time. Even J had fun watching part of it with me. :)

Here's my view from my desk looking upstairs...really glad I am alone on days like this. Now it's time to turn on some Dave Matthews.

So just after I hit publish my boss came downstairs with something for me to ship out. He asked if I was doing okay and said that if I need more time off not to worry about it. If I need to just do half-days this week, that is okay too. He said the importand thing is to get myself back to a good spot. Of course, the tears started right after he left. I can't express enough how greatful I am for such an understanding boss. He has been so good to me through all of this.