Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Take 2

I made it to work this morning. Another day I am so glad I have the 1st floor of the office to myself. Only downfall is I am thirsty and need to go upstairs for water. :( Really avoiding going up there. Only a select few know about what I've gone through but I am still dreading it. I have such a hard time with sympathetic looks...I know people mean well, but it hurts to see the pain in their eyes when they look at me. It happened on Monday at the doctor's office when the tech showed me to the room for the scan. J reminded me this morning it's because people care not because they are pitying me.

I am really glad I stayed home yesterday. Spent part of the day as a couch potato and the other part being semi-productive. We did little things around the house. I also made carrot cake cupcakes from scratch - they turned out really yummy! My guilty pleasure tv show has been Bunheads...it's part Gilmore Girls and part Facts of Life. It's really helped take my mind off of things for short periods of time. Even J had fun watching part of it with me. :)

Here's my view from my desk looking upstairs...really glad I am alone on days like this. Now it's time to turn on some Dave Matthews.




So just after I hit publish my boss came downstairs with something for me to ship out. He asked if I was doing okay and said that if I need more time off not to worry about it. If I need to just do half-days this week, that is okay too. He said the importand thing is to get myself back to a good spot. Of course, the tears started right after he left. I can't express enough how greatful I am for such an understanding boss. He has been so good to me through all of this.


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  1. Carrot cake cupcakes sound amazing and from scratch no less. Glad you have some space to yourself at work, it does make going back a little easier.

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    1. Me too! Somedays I hate being alone...other days I love it!

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  2. Your boss sounds amazing.

    I'm glad you took that extra day for yourself. Thinking of you. *hugs*

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    1. Thank you :) He has been great to say the very least!!

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  3. Found you on LFCA. So sorry to hear about what you are going through, how awful :(. Thank goodness you have such a great boss, sometimes those little things really make a difference.

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    1. Thanks so much for visiting. Having a great boss has really helped!

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  4. Those cupcakes sound yummy!!! Your boss sounds so cool!!! Def bring a jug so you can fill it once and be done...

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    1. I like that idea...I am gooing to have to bring in something larger for my water tomorrow!

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  5. Thinking of you and I agree...having a great boss really does help and carrot cake cupcakes...yummm!

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    1. Can't wait for dessert tonight - yummy cupcakes!

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  6. Cupcakes! YESSSS.

    I'm exactly the same way where even though I know it's caring I don't like people looking... sorry because it just makes me feel sad.

    My love, you are doing awesome.

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    1. Thank you :) Only 2 hours to go and I can say I made it through the day!

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  7. I'm encouraged that your boss is so support and compassionate. I've heard horror stories of employers that seem too harsh to believe. Luckily I work from home so when I need to weep at my desk (which is often) I can without detection. The flip side is it's very isolating.

    You've been on my mind so much. Not in a creepy-internet-stalker kind of way. Just in a I-am-furious-at-the-universe-for-you kinda way. xo

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    1. Thanks :) You've been on mind too...

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  8. I really like Bunheads too-but I'm a GG nut. They are always my comfort when I'm feeling down about anything. I hope you continue to feel stronger as the days go on-you seem to be a really, really strong woman.

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    1. Thank you so much :) I felt like I was in Bunheads withdrawal last night when I didn't get to watch it. lol
      I've been a big GG fan too!

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  9. Glad you made it in. Sounds like you have a really understanding work environment. And I LOVE Bunheads!

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