Monday, October 1, 2012

Less than 24 hours to go...

Until our first ultrasound...I don't know if I can describe how anxious I am about this. I am trying to stay calm but now that we are down to the wire I can feel the anxiety waying on me. I had a dream the other night that when we went for the u/s there was nothing to be seen and I got pissed at the doctor. I couldn't understand how all my beta numbers were so good and he couldn't see anything. The last night I dreamt that we had a gender reveal party and my Mom got the message wrong and had the cupcakes frosted pink and I knew right away what I was having. My dreams and sleeping have been all over the place.

I definitely have some symptoms - wake up nauseous and have bouts of nausea during the day, my sense of smell is out of whack, feel bloated, super sore girls at the end of the day but the one that hit me the most was when coffee did not seem appealing anymore. (decaf, of course...I am two days without any coffee) Part of me still wonders if the symptoms are present due to the 2mL of PIO that is going into me every night. The doctor did say he was throwing the kitchen sink at me to help me stay pregnant, so hopefully they are real symptoms.

I am just so afraid that within two weeks this will all be over. During the two pregnancies where we had ultrasounds my dates told me I was around 8 weeks but I measured at 6 weeks plus a few days. I am so curious/anxious/scared as to what will or won't be seen tomorrow.


  1. I am so excited for you tomorrow. Keep your chin up and think positive about seeing your little baby with a flickering little heartbeat.

    1. Thanks so much!! I am trying hard to stay positive. :)