Monday, January 28, 2013

Mixed emotions

P.U.P.O. - pregnant until proven otherwise...that is how I am feeling about this one right now.

It does not feel real to me and I am nervous about what we will or won't see during Friday's u/s. I am truly trying to take it one day at a time and enjoy each moment I have with "Cinco". I figure it's not going to do me any good to worry from one week to the next, so I am trying really hard to stay calm and not think about it every time I have a minute free. I did pick up my knitting this week. It was nice to start it again...I figure if this doesn't work out, I'll just pack it away again like I did after Fred left us. I think knitting helps me remain positive and not think about all of the ways things can go wrong.

I have a follow-up appointment with my endocrinologist this afternoon and boy am I glad I do...Dr. A called on Friday afternoon about my TSH level. He said it was a little high and he wanted me back on the Synthroid...when I told him about today's appointment, he was okay with me waiting until today to find out what Dr. H has to say about my wonky thyroid. He also said he was planning on calling Dr. H. It feels really good that he's fighting so hard with us to make sure we do everything we can to have a positive outcome this time around.

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  1. Gosh you think after a positive pregnancy test that things change, but they are still as hard. I hope that you enjoy some time knitting this week and hoping for the best on Friday's ultrasound! I need to get back to crocheting and/or quilting. I just sit and stare at my sewing machine collecting dust.

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    1. Thank you :) Maybe if things go well, I'll bring my sewing machine out from retirement...it's buried right now.

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  2. One day at a time lovely. And I hope you can find a way to embrace and enjoy this.

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    1. Thank you :) I am doing my best to enjoy each moment.

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  3. Oh yay!! I'm so happy to hear the ultrasound went well and you're PUPO... wait, where did the Cinco nickname come from?? Did I miss that story? This will surely be frustrating 1ww, but I think you're on the right track with obsessing knitting -- winter is still here, after all. Or you could start crocheting a bikini?

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    1. Thank you! We came up with the nickname Cinco because this is my 5th pregnancy. J wanted Johnny#5 but the president of his company came up with Cinco and it stuck :)

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  4. I completely understand. View it as a marathon instead of a sprint: one foot in front of the other. Hang in there and know I'm hoping for more good news very soon.

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    1. Thank you very much :) That is exactly what I need to remember about this journey.

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  5. Ive always said that pregnancy is harder than infertility. Especially after loss. Knitting is good, your endo appt. is good, all is good right now despite the anxiety. Sitting here with you m'love.

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