I had all these great intentions of giving you a post on how I am starting the new year off with a new attitude and all that stuff. Hmm...as you can see that post didn't happen. I really do want to start 2013 with a new me, but I am not there yet. Not knowing what is next for us has really thrown me for a loop. I feel stuck.
If we were to move forward with IVF it would be with donor eggs. That helps with the time frame of everything, but I still feel the need to move forward with it sooner rather than later because of my age. J would like to wait until late spring or early summer and I think I am okay with that. I do not want to get ourselves in such a financial bind that we are in trouble down the road. It also gives me time to lose some weight and get healthier before moving forward.
Dr. A did offer us a discounted IUI if we'd like to do that with my next cycle. I think I like that idea but the fear of another miscarriage is there. I don't think my chances of getting pregnant from an IUI are high, but who knows after having the surgeries and a nice clean ute...maybe it could happen??
So many thoughts are swirling through my head...maybe we could get lucky with a spontaneous pregnancy during this cycle?? We are bringing sexytime back and it's been fun :) so maybe we'll get lucky the old-fashioned way?!?! A girl can dream, right?? ;)
We also have stuff going on with Garnett...while he was at the ranch during our break he was seizure-free but the other night we had multiple false alarms and it made both J and I really nervous. (In order to get clear of the area I jumped over the back of the couch during the first false alarm.) I spoke to the vet about it and he said it seemed like the seizure was trying to break through. The next step would be to see a neurologist. I have no idea how much that would cost. We are working on getting an estimate. I asked my Mom if we might be able to borrow some money from her for this...it's so odd, I wouldn't borrow money from her for my own treatments, but when it came to Garnett I had no problem asking about it.
As for our trip home to MA - it was fun. Much more relaxing than other trips. I was so anxious about going home this year and I am really happy to report it was a great trip. I had plenty of Dunkin Donuts coffee! I missed out on some things...real apple cider, a trip to the beach, going out to breakfast at my favorite diner by the beach... I was able to see friends I haven't seen in a couple of years, which was really good. I needed my friend time. Best of all, there was no family drama!!
As always, thanks for listening! Happy Friday Y'all!