Monday, September 24, 2012

Anxious Annie

I am feeling pretty anxious about things right now...nothing major has changed but I had two minor incidents. Yesterday I was bitten by a tick...I got it off (the whole thing) easily and it was an American dog tick, so low chance of getting Lyme disease but I still freaked out over it. I emailed the nurse this morning and she said I did everything I should have; now I continue to watch the area and hope nothing happens. I heard from the nurse again this afternoon because my TSH level is slightly elevated - it's at 2.88 and they would like to see 2.5 or lower. They have increased my dosage for Syn.throid. Hopefully that does the trick and things will be smooth sailing with my thyroid.

I can't thank everyone enough for all of your congratulations and kind words after I announced the BFP. It feels so strange to have shared the news with so many people...we shared with a lot more people IRL as well. We kept the second and third pregnancies pretty private and only let family members know when I had miscarried. We only told my mom about the third pregnancy but in the same day I told her I also had to let her know we lost it. It's been such a bumpy road for us and I know I am going to be anxious until 10 weeks...we've never made it that far. I know the anxiety won't end magically at 10 weeks, I am sure it will continue. Just really, really hoping I actually make it that far.

Over the weekend we cleaned up the spare bedroom a bit in preparation for J's mom and her husband's visit next month. More than once we talked about "if this becomes the baby's room". I truly hope that we get to decorate it as a nursery.

When I saw this quote it describes how I am feeling about this pregnancy pretty accurately...I know that if we lose this baby it's going to hurt like hell no matter if I dreamed about a nursery or not. So for now,  I am going to dream (albeit, cautiously).

10 comments:

  1. I am sure this has to be just as scary as exciting for you. I am keeping my fingers crossed and keeping you in my thoughts that you pass the 10 week mark with flying colors and then week by week until little one is safely in your arms.

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    1. Thank you so much. :)It really is just as exciting as it is scary. It would have been so different if the PGD testing had not been inconclusive.

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  2. Congrats on the BFP (and thanks for commenting on my blog!!) That's awesome! I'm sure you're over the moon excited!

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  3. I am excited for you. THIS. IS. IT.

    Agreed - dream and hope, my love, do it.

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    1. Thank you :) I SOOO hope you are right!!

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  4. Hello from ICLW. This is such exciting news, although I can imagine that you will be holding your breath for a while. My thoughts will be with you as you wade through the next several weeks!

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    1. Thanks so much for stopping by and your kind words. :)

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