Anxious Annie

I am feeling pretty anxious about things right now...nothing major has changed but I had two minor incidents. Yesterday I was bitten by a tick...I got it off (the whole thing) easily and it was an American dog tick, so low chance of getting Lyme disease but I still freaked out over it. I emailed the nurse this morning and she said I did everything I should have; now I continue to watch the area and hope nothing happens. I heard from the nurse again this afternoon because my TSH level is slightly elevated - it's at 2.88 and they would like to see 2.5 or lower. They have increased my dosage for Syn.throid. Hopefully that does the trick and things will be smooth sailing with my thyroid.

I can't thank everyone enough for all of your congratulations and kind words after I announced the BFP. It feels so strange to have shared the news with so many people...we shared with a lot more people IRL as well. We kept the second and third pregnancies pretty private and only let family members know when I had miscarried. We only told my mom about the third pregnancy but in the same day I told her I also had to let her know we lost it. It's been such a bumpy road for us and I know I am going to be anxious until 10 weeks...we've never made it that far. I know the anxiety won't end magically at 10 weeks, I am sure it will continue. Just really, really hoping I actually make it that far.

Over the weekend we cleaned up the spare bedroom a bit in preparation for J's mom and her husband's visit next month. More than once we talked about "if this becomes the baby's room". I truly hope that we get to decorate it as a nursery.

When I saw this quote it describes how I am feeling about this pregnancy pretty accurately...I know that if we lose this baby it's going to hurt like hell no matter if I dreamed about a nursery or not. So for now,  I am going to dream (albeit, cautiously).