Thursday, November 29, 2012
I am having a much tougher time picking up the pieces after this loss compared to the others. I know each loss is different and I can't lump them all together, but this has really been tough for both J and I. The biggest piece is that I don't know what is next for us. In an odd way, having the surgery next week helps because it means I am doing something. It seems that since I've made the decision to go forward with the procedure I've read about more than once person who was diagnosed with endometriosis after having a lap done and they had not been experiencing any symptoms. I am curious about what Dr. A is going to find.
Did I mention to y'all that I have pregnant co-worker? I work in an office of 20 and this is the second time where I've suffered a loss at the same time where a co-worker is pregnant. It's miserable to say the least. I am so glad that we are now in a suite with two floors, so I can avoid contact with her when I need to.
I have also been feeling guilty that my commenting on blogs has changed. Please know that I am keeping up with all of you and cheering for you.
I am sorry if I sound too much like a Debbie Downer...more than once I've read The Barren Librarian's post when I've felt down this week and tried to remind myself that I am a Warrior!!