The days between appointments can't seem to go by quick enough for me. I felt great last Tuesday and Wednesday after the first u/s but once Thursday rolled around the anxiety started creeping back in. I hate that I can't just relax and enjoy what is happening. I am hoping if we get past 9 weeks I will have an easier time relaxing. I also don't think it helps that the timing is so close to our third pregnacy. I am about a week off from where I was a year ago, so more than once I have caught myself comparing what was happening then with what is happening now and not in a positive way. I really need to find a way to focus on the positive and realize that if something goes wrong now more likely than not there was nothing I could do to prevent it.
My fingers are crossed that all will go just fine on Wednesday. Thanks for listening :)
Monday, October 8, 2012
Friday, October 5, 2012
Sigh of relief
I am breathing a sigh of relief right now and it has nothing to do with the pregnancy. I just got the call from our Vet's office that all of Garnett's recent blood work all came back within normal limits. He had to have blood work done for the tick-borne disease he caught this summer, to check the chemistry level of Phenobartibal in his system and his liver levels (due the phenobarbital)...I was SO happy to hear that everything came back normal! He's on the pheno due to his seizures, which - knock on wood - have not happened again since we've gotten him back on track with him meds!!
Favorite book
October 5: What is your favorite book?
I love to read, but don't do it nearly as much as I used to. When I used to commute via the train for my job I read 2-4 books a month...I really miss spending that time reading, but I don't miss the almost 2 hour commute each way!
Here are my top two favorites:
I love to read, but don't do it nearly as much as I used to. When I used to commute via the train for my job I read 2-4 books a month...I really miss spending that time reading, but I don't miss the almost 2 hour commute each way!
Here are my top two favorites:
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
Day 3 of Writing Prompts and (Almost)Wordless Wednesday
October 3: What is your most embarrassing moment?
I am am sure I have plenty of embarrassing moments that could be shared, but this is the one that always comes to my mind first when I think of the embarrassing moments I've had!
It happened back in the 4th grade...in grades 4-6 we had open classrooms, not necessarily open in the sense of teaching style but more in terms of the actual space. It was an very large open room that was then divided into three classrooms. You would move from one room to the next for different classes. Well, there was I was sitting in my seat, paying attention and minding my own business, but I could tell if I moved the wrong way a "toot" might escape. I did my best not to move. Next thing you know my pencil rolled off my desk and I oh so carefully bent over to pick it up and "toot"!! Of course everyone near me heard it and of course, it was right before we had to switch classrooms. By the time we had switched and we all in the next class I think almost the entire 4th grade knew what had just happened!!
Now for something much better than "tooting" :)
West Bay beach in Roatan...where we honeymooned...how I wish I was sitting on the beach right about now!
I am am sure I have plenty of embarrassing moments that could be shared, but this is the one that always comes to my mind first when I think of the embarrassing moments I've had!
It happened back in the 4th grade...in grades 4-6 we had open classrooms, not necessarily open in the sense of teaching style but more in terms of the actual space. It was an very large open room that was then divided into three classrooms. You would move from one room to the next for different classes. Well, there was I was sitting in my seat, paying attention and minding my own business, but I could tell if I moved the wrong way a "toot" might escape. I did my best not to move. Next thing you know my pencil rolled off my desk and I oh so carefully bent over to pick it up and "toot"!! Of course everyone near me heard it and of course, it was right before we had to switch classrooms. By the time we had switched and we all in the next class I think almost the entire 4th grade knew what had just happened!!
Now for something much better than "tooting" :)
West Bay beach in Roatan...where we honeymooned...how I wish I was sitting on the beach right about now!
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Another challenge
I decided to jump on board with Jenn at The Future Fords for her October writing prompts. The list looks like a lot of fun. :)
October 1: What is your astrological sign and do you feel it’s accurate?
I am a Sagittarius. I have to admit I do not follow my horoscope today the way I did when I was younger, but when I see the traits I know I have them in me!!
October 2: How did you husband/spouse/partner propose?
J and I were together about 2.5 years when he proposed. There were a lot of times when I wished he had proposed sooner but I don't think the timing was right for him. When I met him he had just come out of a 10 (or was it 12) year relationship so it definitely took time for him to completely let her go. There are stories I could tell but I won't, because I am still trying to let go of some of that crap from the beginning of our relationship. Anywhooo...the good stuff: our proposal!!
I wasn't sure when it was going to happen, but I knew it was going to happen somewhat soon because J had started saying he was going to love me "til happily ever after". We had talked about rings and J had told me that when it was time we'd look together. One day while we were still living in MA he took me out for a special shopping trip and I really thought that was it we were going to look for rings! I was wrong. :( It was still a fun day (Wrentham Outlets and Patriots Place) but it turned out he was shopping for a Wii for me. lol.
In February 2010 we had friends who were getting married on a cruise and we were both really, really looking forward to the trip. We had just moved to TX in January and couldn't wait to see our friends again even thought it had only been 2 months since we had last seen them. It was an amazing time. Their wedding is still one of the most fun I've been too. The cruise was great, too...it was through the Eastern Carribean with the last day being on the island of Labadee. At the time we were both Samantha Brown fans and couldn't wait to see the rock formation that looked and sounded like a dragon.
When we got to the beach at Labadee J wanted to go in the water first but I pretty much insisted we go see the "dragon" first because we had to walk to it and I didn't want to get wet and then have to walk over to it. So we relaxed on some chairs first and J was taking notes...I asked him about it but was told I was being too nosy. Once he was finally finished we walked over. There was a little beach on the way to the dragon that we stopped at to take some pictures. I was standing down on the beach and started to follow J back up to the path and he told me to wait there. When he came back he threw a Propel water bottle into the water and said "Go get it." (I still laugh at that part!) Well, thankfully he didn't throw it far...when I opened it there was J's note "Will you marry me?" I squealed, hugged him, told him I loved him and he put the ring on my finger. :) Turns out that when J walked back up the path he asked someone to record what was happening. We took some pictures and then went up to see the dragon.
After seeing the dragon we made our way back to the beach and went swimming. While we were swimming J said "So, um, you never did answer me...Will you marry me?" I giggled and finally said yes!
That night when we were at dinner our table was practically empty - only one other friend there. I have never used my left hand so much!! We finally had to show her because she did not pick up on the clues at all!! After dinner we went to a show with the group...when it was over we were chatting with the bride and she asked what we did that day. I put my hand up and she said "You did FIVE things today?!?" I just laughed and said no and had to point to the ring!! hehe. There was ALOT of celebrating done that night...way too many mojitos and then we all went back to the bride and groom's suite to toast with champagne. J and I finally went to bed around 5 and pretty much fell asleep sitting up because we were both too afraid to lay down. It was definitely a very fun time!!
October 1: What is your astrological sign and do you feel it’s accurate?
I am a Sagittarius. I have to admit I do not follow my horoscope today the way I did when I was younger, but when I see the traits I know I have them in me!!
October 2: How did you husband/spouse/partner propose?
J and I were together about 2.5 years when he proposed. There were a lot of times when I wished he had proposed sooner but I don't think the timing was right for him. When I met him he had just come out of a 10 (or was it 12) year relationship so it definitely took time for him to completely let her go. There are stories I could tell but I won't, because I am still trying to let go of some of that crap from the beginning of our relationship. Anywhooo...the good stuff: our proposal!!
I wasn't sure when it was going to happen, but I knew it was going to happen somewhat soon because J had started saying he was going to love me "til happily ever after". We had talked about rings and J had told me that when it was time we'd look together. One day while we were still living in MA he took me out for a special shopping trip and I really thought that was it we were going to look for rings! I was wrong. :( It was still a fun day (Wrentham Outlets and Patriots Place) but it turned out he was shopping for a Wii for me. lol.
In February 2010 we had friends who were getting married on a cruise and we were both really, really looking forward to the trip. We had just moved to TX in January and couldn't wait to see our friends again even thought it had only been 2 months since we had last seen them. It was an amazing time. Their wedding is still one of the most fun I've been too. The cruise was great, too...it was through the Eastern Carribean with the last day being on the island of Labadee. At the time we were both Samantha Brown fans and couldn't wait to see the rock formation that looked and sounded like a dragon.
When we got to the beach at Labadee J wanted to go in the water first but I pretty much insisted we go see the "dragon" first because we had to walk to it and I didn't want to get wet and then have to walk over to it. So we relaxed on some chairs first and J was taking notes...I asked him about it but was told I was being too nosy. Once he was finally finished we walked over. There was a little beach on the way to the dragon that we stopped at to take some pictures. I was standing down on the beach and started to follow J back up to the path and he told me to wait there. When he came back he threw a Propel water bottle into the water and said "Go get it." (I still laugh at that part!) Well, thankfully he didn't throw it far...when I opened it there was J's note "Will you marry me?" I squealed, hugged him, told him I loved him and he put the ring on my finger. :) Turns out that when J walked back up the path he asked someone to record what was happening. We took some pictures and then went up to see the dragon.
After seeing the dragon we made our way back to the beach and went swimming. While we were swimming J said "So, um, you never did answer me...Will you marry me?" I giggled and finally said yes!
That night when we were at dinner our table was practically empty - only one other friend there. I have never used my left hand so much!! We finally had to show her because she did not pick up on the clues at all!! After dinner we went to a show with the group...when it was over we were chatting with the bride and she asked what we did that day. I put my hand up and she said "You did FIVE things today?!?" I just laughed and said no and had to point to the ring!! hehe. There was ALOT of celebrating done that night...way too many mojitos and then we all went back to the bride and groom's suite to toast with champagne. J and I finally went to bed around 5 and pretty much fell asleep sitting up because we were both too afraid to lay down. It was definitely a very fun time!!
First Ultrasound
I am happy to report that all went well today!! I am beyond excited and giddy right now. Needless to say, I was anxious before the appointment - up an hour earlier than normal. We were able to have our appointment with Dr. A, which was beyond great. Once the wand was in place it just took a moment for him to find what he was looking for. As soon as we spotted the sac we could see there was someone inside it with a beating heart! J spotted it right away. Dr. A said he was surprised that we were at that point...he didn't really expect it today. He said I am 6w1d and the baby was measuring at 6weeks so we are right on time. I've never had that before. For the two pregnancies where we did get to an ultrasound we measured 2 weeks behind.
I have definitely let out a sigh of relief for today...I am going to do my best to enjoy the moment and not get too carried away one way or the other.
I have definitely let out a sigh of relief for today...I am going to do my best to enjoy the moment and not get too carried away one way or the other.
Monday, October 1, 2012
Less than 24 hours to go...
Until our first ultrasound...I don't know if I can describe how anxious I am about this. I am trying to stay calm but now that we are down to the wire I can feel the anxiety waying on me. I had a dream the other night that when we went for the u/s there was nothing to be seen and I got pissed at the doctor. I couldn't understand how all my beta numbers were so good and he couldn't see anything. The last night I dreamt that we had a gender reveal party and my Mom got the message wrong and had the cupcakes frosted pink and I knew right away what I was having. My dreams and sleeping have been all over the place.
I definitely have some symptoms - wake up nauseous and have bouts of nausea during the day, my sense of smell is out of whack, feel bloated, super sore girls at the end of the day but the one that hit me the most was when coffee did not seem appealing anymore. (decaf, of course...I am two days without any coffee) Part of me still wonders if the symptoms are present due to the 2mL of PIO that is going into me every night. The doctor did say he was throwing the kitchen sink at me to help me stay pregnant, so hopefully they are real symptoms.
I am just so afraid that within two weeks this will all be over. During the two pregnancies where we had ultrasounds my dates told me I was around 8 weeks but I measured at 6 weeks plus a few days. I am so curious/anxious/scared as to what will or won't be seen tomorrow.
I definitely have some symptoms - wake up nauseous and have bouts of nausea during the day, my sense of smell is out of whack, feel bloated, super sore girls at the end of the day but the one that hit me the most was when coffee did not seem appealing anymore. (decaf, of course...I am two days without any coffee) Part of me still wonders if the symptoms are present due to the 2mL of PIO that is going into me every night. The doctor did say he was throwing the kitchen sink at me to help me stay pregnant, so hopefully they are real symptoms.
I am just so afraid that within two weeks this will all be over. During the two pregnancies where we had ultrasounds my dates told me I was around 8 weeks but I measured at 6 weeks plus a few days. I am so curious/anxious/scared as to what will or won't be seen tomorrow.
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