You say it's your birthday...

Well, it's my birthday too!!

Yes, I hate the number but I love celebrating my special day! My Mom is on the plane now on her way to San Antonio and I cannot wait to see her!! Really looking forward to a fun weekend before going in for my lap on Tuesday.

I started the day off with my pre-op labs, but did stop at Starbuck's on my way to work to treat myself to a Peppermint Mocha.

Hope y'all have a GREAT day and a wonderful weekend. :)

Sometimes...

I am having a much tougher time picking up the pieces after this loss compared to the others. I know each loss is different and I can't lump them all together, but this has really been tough for both J and I. The biggest piece is that I don't know what is next for us. In an odd way, having the surgery next week helps because it means I am doing something. It seems that since I've made the decision to go forward with the procedure I've read about more than once person who was diagnosed with endometriosis after having a lap done and they had not been experiencing any symptoms. I am curious about what Dr. A is going to find.

Did I mention to y'all that I have pregnant co-worker? I work in an office of 20 and this is the second time where I've suffered a loss at the same time where a co-worker is pregnant. It's miserable to say the least. I am so glad that we are now in a suite with two floors, so I can avoid contact with her when I need to.

I have also been feeling guilty that my commenting on blogs has changed. Please know that I am keeping up with all of you and cheering for you.

I am sorry if I sound too much like a Debbie Downer...more than once I've read The Barren Librarian's post when I've felt down this week and tried to remind myself that I am a Warrior!!

(Almost) Wordless Wednesday

Really wish I was having my morning coffee here:

Instead of here:

One week from today...

I'll be having my laparscopy done to check for endometriosis. Part of me feels crazy for doing this and the other side thinks maybe it's just the frugal side of me who can't pass up something that will be free. I think it will be good to explore all sides of my IF and hopefully this will help us with deciding what is next. My Mom is coming down on Friday for a week - it will be nice to have her here with me next week while I am recovering.

Our holiday weekend was good - each day had some tears but they also had fun in them to balance out the sad side. Thanksgiving morning was rough...it was J's first major holiday since his dad passed away. We tried to watch the Macy's day parade but J ended up in tears saying "We said we'd take our kids to the parade." It was tough...I think it's the first time he's let himself cry in front of me over the losses. After that we decided it was time to go for a walk at the park with the puppies. SO glad we did - it really reset our moods and we burned some calories before we consumed them!

Saturday we did our part for Small Business Saturday. We headed up to Fredericksburg for some shopping. It was so much fun! The weather was perfect. Only downfall was the crowds...so many people had the same idea! I am hoping we can get back up there again before the end of the year. Funny story for you from when we were shopping...we went into a store that sold all sorts of jams, jellies, salsas and sauces...we picked out two jars to purchase after testing many of the samples. Well, if we bought three we'd save 15% on each bottle, so I got to pick out the third...I quickly grabbed the Pineapple and Hatch salsa. After we started driving I asked J what was wrong with me...how did I manage to pick up salsa and not the wild blueberry preserves?!? I am a bit of a nut when it comes to blueberries - especially the wild variety. I think I've been in TX too long...still wondering how this girl from New England who grew up with blueberries in her backyard picked salsa over blueberry jam... Another reason to go back!

I leave you with some pictures :)

 Lazy puppies watching tv

 Thanksgiving dinner in our courtyard (we put way too much food on our plates and didn't eat it all!)

Just in case

You wanted to see more of our wedding...I did a guest post for a blogger from San Pedro:
http://www.sanpedroscoop.com/

(Almost) Wordless Wednesday

Today I share with you one of my favorite wedding pictures...I am so thankful for that day...

it was amazing! 

To scope or not to scope...that is the question

Ladies, I need your thoughts on something...when I first started this journey with Dr. A he thought there was a chance I have some endometriosis in there. At the time, he thought it was mild enough that surgery was not necessary. After the way I was feeling last week, I decided to email Dr. A to see what he thought about my having the surgery before the end of the year. I believe, that because I've met my deductible for the year, the costs would be minimal. So, Dr. A said it wouldn't be a bad idea to go ahead and do it...they would put me on the birth control again and schedule the procedure. So, now my question for you...am I nuts for considering surgery before the holidays? If you have had laparoscopic surgery, what is the recovery like? Any thoughts/advice are welcome!